When trauma healing is hard

I have more good days than bad days. But the universe still throws me days where I lose faith in my continued healing and start to doubt the progress I’ve made.

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My biggest mental health gremlin is self-doubt. Part of that is just how I’m made. Part of that is linked to patchy memory and some memory loss. I feel like I can’t always trust my brain and this perpetuates that cycle of self-doubt. It gives my inner critic’s voice more weight and evidence than it should have.

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Today is an odd day as they’re starting to close internal borders here in Australia and Sydney is developing more COVID hotspots.

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Still, it isn’t a day where I am doubting reality and trying hard to be alive. But I wanted to build on some beautiful affirmations I read this morning and write down my own so that on those days, I can come back here and remind myself.

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✨ I am worthy of love and belonging

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✨ I am a ‘child of the universe no less than the trees and stars’. I have a right to be here

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✨ I have come a long way. I have relearned courage, compassion and trust

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✨ My healing is not linear and that is okay

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✨ I have a voice

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✨ I trust myself to know the difference between what is real and unreal

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✨ I am responding to my body and mind with compassion and kindness

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✨ I am healing even when it is hard