I began writing this yesterday from the front seat of my car after panicking while walking through a car park alone after dark.
For context, this was a busy car park at 5.30pm on a Saturday evening. But I still found myself replaying in my head all the scenarios in which possible harm could come to me while I was walking 200m from the lift to my car.
It’s a crappy ending to a really great (but slightly overwhelming!) day. I had an in-person education session for the Pilates instructor training I’m doing. This was my first trip up to our nearest major city, Sydney in about five week.
In that time, the Australian city of Melbourne has become a major COVID-19 hotspot, with hundreds of new virus case every day. And we’re seeing COVID-19 hotspots pop up along the east coast of Australia.
Coming from our little town in the Illawarra region back into Sydney amid that pandemic second wave was a bit daunting for me. I think everyone found the first wave of the pandemic a time of heightened anxiety and I was no different in that.
When I get incredibly anxious like I did in the parking lot it can sometimes taint everything that happens around it.
But I want to remember the good, positive things that happened today because they far outweighed five minutes of anxiety at the end.
So I’m writing myself a gratitude list.
I am grateful for my incredible parents for looking after my son so that I could come up and do this today.
I am grateful that my autoimmune disease is in remission and I don’t have to worry too much about the effects of COVID-19 on a compromised immune system.
I am grateful for the amazing teachers and the nurturing environment my education Institute provides.
I am grateful to my fellow students for their encouragement and their tips.
I am grateful for this outlet.
I am grateful that I have found the words and courage to express my thoughts and feelings.